12 Rules For M.A.D. (“Miracles A Dozen”) Recovery: Rule 10

Express yourself thru’ garbled poetry when things are too painful even to see clearly.

Sometimes when one is very unwell, the mind no longer follows the legislative Ego. As I said above, one is an out-of-control machine responding to a threat that is no longer present, except for in the mind. At such times, it is not really possible to form definite, solid opinions & rules an act on them. But, in order to even begin to work towards doing so, it can be very helpful to start beginning to express oneself more. In poetry, as opposed to a prose treatise, one merely presents a possible, proposed view of things, based upon one’s subjective, tentative take upon it, letting the opinions & feelings stand in their own dignity, which is precisely what is needed for someone whose mind is very clouded & unable to run in exact accord with an objective reality. In doing this, hopefully if there are any kind people around you, you will get some attention for one’s efforts, which will boost one’s self-esteem somewhat & give others to understand you in a more sensitive light, as someone who feels & has an inner world that deserves & requires taking care of. That in turn will buttress one’s sense of self further, towards the re-attainment of a strong, stable Ego which is able to assert itself objectively again, i.e. True health. Poetry can be a kind of cry to the world, & plea to be viewed a real person, whose thoughts & feelings matter. In a world in which this kind of personal respect for people, especially young people, is becoming increasingly endangered & rare, poetry is perhaps the best antidote imaginable. When you read a poem, you instinctively feel you are being taken into the innermost reaches of a person’s soul, with the reverence that that demands. If that experience is not held as holy & revered by our society, there is little hope left for any of us. If one’s innermost, careful thoughts & words don’t matter, what possibly can matter? As Nietzsche said, ‘the world revolves inaudiably’; it revolves around thoughts. If we cease to pay attention to our thoughts, the pivot of all action &, in the time when technology has conquered Nature, the pivot of all material reality, then everything will fall to pieces. Express yourself thru’ garbled poetry when things are too painful even to see clearly.

12 Rules For M.A.D. (“Miracles Dozen”) Recovery: Rule 3

There is a terribly poisonous notions nowadays that pleasure & health are somehow at odds. There is really still an inherited notion, from Chistianity, that pleasure itself is sinful that wreaks absolute disaster on all, especially the young. People are afraid to enjoy themselves, & they don’t realize that pleasure is the body’s natural way of guiding you towards what is most healthy & beneficial. The main reason this does not seem so, is due to the imagined sinful nature of pleasure itself, combined with the unhealthy habits in which children are raised. For instance, the reason that children will go for fizzy, sugary drinks, is not because these drinks are more pleasant in themselves. Its more a combination of self-hatred, based upon parental neglect/ absence of love, & the fact that is what they are acclimatized to from early on – its what their parents give them. They then do not realize their preference is merely due to acclimatization due to the way in which society wrongly persuades children (& adults) that their identity is much more fixed than it is, & that their instincts & tastes cannot be developed. It also seems ‘uncool’, meaning, in other words, that is seems like sign of weakness to actually care for yourself by admitting you made bad choices in the past & choosing healthier options. In other words, as I said, it is almost entirely due to a lack of love. If we make war with our tastes & instincts, they may never develop, & we will be at constant war with ourselves & thus our vitality & potential enormously stimyied. It is quite possible – normal in fact – for pleasure and health to be in100% harmony. It is merely a question of being kind to ourselves, & altering our habits gradually in such a way that the capacity for pleasure in them is developed. But if we see healthy things as a punishment, something we have to make a big effort at, that pleasure will never develop, because the way we see things itself determines how they manifest, psychologically at least. Most of the time, it is in reality much more healthy to stop tormenting oneself than it is unhealthy to simply continue with ‘unhealthy things’, if doing healthy things seems such a great effort; because stress & effort & inner conflict are intrinsically draining to our health & strength, & could & must be used for real tasks in the world rather than ‘looking after our health’! Leisure, & ease of functioning are the sin qua non of true health & spirituality, as all good rulers & artists know; there is nothing healthier than just having time for relaxation, for ‘doing nothing’, & just letting oneself become like a galvanizing lightening rod held up in air, or net collecting butterflies, a shelf collecting beautiful dust, ready to be struct by whatever thoughts & inspiration naturally occurs, rather than going to too much effort to make it happen, which is often the most self-defeating thing you can do. I believe that the truth of the matter here goes back to my previous rule, too: that people fail by attempting to do things too rapidly, turning it into self-defeating chore. It is also important to know that all the nonsense cooked up by Dr.s & nutritionalists is actually nonsense. Unless you feel palpably healthier & better as a result of on their suggestions (& do try to be aware of the placebo effect in your assessment), then please don’t even give those materialistic pipsqueaks advice a second glance. There are so many really great health foods, but the Gold Standard is simply how you feel over the course of the days & weeks (usually the very day or moment you consume them) ; not talk of ‘clogged arteries’ & other bog-standard drivel. The stress their fear-mongering creates is far worse for you than anything. If you invest power in things outside of yourself, outside of your own mind/body, that will inevitably only tend to make you weaker, so you should always work towards the opposite; towards greater self-sufficiency and selfreliance. & any dependency is largely a psychological dependency. The same, of course, applies with all the sexual mores & guidelines handed down by society. Sexuality is a natural blessing & source of joy – the only thing that can soil it is the human mind. The usual outcries are therefore almost entirely imaginary, hysterical & without moral basis but popular insanity, destructive vanity, envy against those are getting more of it than you are, or sheer delight in cruelty under the guise of morality. Perhaps see the great Wilhelm Reich’s work for what health looks like on this matter. As Wilhelm Reich knew, all health, of both mind & body, stems from balancing & fostering the right type of personal energy (i.e. Energy flow around the body, & to some extent also one’s environment). Feeling & emotion is itself, & should be, a condensed form of Reason. Learn to trust one’s feelings, & recognize how they are nearly always organically related to one’s reasonings or deeper knowledge. Learn to tune them, by gradually listening to & cultivating them, until you can trust them. Reconnect with your instincts.